Yeah, I think you're right - I've not had a car with less than 230lb/ft for about a decade now. I also managed to stall it yesterday, but in my defence it was some clown dithering at a zebra crossing then deciding to run out in front of me, and I forgot to dip the clutch
Still chewing over options, although Z4C is still very much top of the list as a straight-forward, slightly different to the usual option of 'fast hatch/saloon'. I'm overthinking it, but as much as anything that's to give my mind something to focus on other than the (expected, rational) anxiety caused by having my property fucked with. I expect most people after something like this worry if they've been personally targetted, etc whereas in reality it's just some theiving cunt seeing an opportunity and they don't know you exist other than as a function of the theft attempt - I can square that part away.
The
entirely irrational, crippling anxiety that I'll somehow - no idea how - have done something wrong which means the insurance will be void and I'll be financially fucked and without a car and probably arrested or something is far harder. It's keeping me up till 4am every night and I can't focus on a fucking thing at work, tying my guts in knots and all that. If I were some sort of wide boy not declaring mods / speeding tickets or something that'd be rational - but I'm not, I'm immensely boring, so I don't know where this is coming from other than my usual imposter syndrome about being allowed to be a normal person, yadda yadda.
Being rationally anxious (due to the theft attempt) is normal, but this roll-on irrational stuff really, really isn't, which is why it's a mental illness, not a fun character quirk. It's particularly annoying as I'd done a decent job spending the previous week off work and resettling myself somewhat, then Saturday night this fucking wrecking ball comes in at literally the worst possible time to fuck that up.
Overthinking the inevitable replacement at least gives me something to direct my mind on that drowns some of that out. Expect I likely wont hear about the state of things till towards the weekend at which point things should chill out a bit as I'll at least know where I stand.
TLDR - could have done without all this, really
